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Posted on March 28th, 2020 @ 11:07am
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FRIENDS ONLY
Add me if you want, just tell me who you are.
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Posted on May 21st, 2009 @ 11:28pm
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Why didn't anyone ever tell me you could get high off of cough medicine?
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Posted on May 16th, 2009 @ 2:06pm
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I celebrate myself,
And what i assume you shall assume
For every atom belonging to me as good as belongs to you
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Posted on April 13th, 2009 @ 2:20am
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Oh the lulz. Did anyone see fearn cottons delve into the underground world of ~AnOReXia~? God I could smack a bitch, oohing and aahing over photoshoped pictures and 'trying out' anorexia then wandering how girls do it? Its called an eating disorder, you don't need to struggle or force yourself not to eat and even the idea of 'trying it out anorexia is insulting to anyone who has struggled with any kind of eating disorder. It makes me so angry to the point I feel a bit sick. Brb trying out bulimia
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Posted on January 19th, 2009 @ 12:26pm
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I was going to post to report i'd dropped from 12 stone (168 pounds bmi 23.4) to 11 stone (154 pounds bmi 21.5) but when i weighed myself before lunch i've somehow gone up to 157 pounds over the weekend. I knew this would happen. Even with all of the hoodia i'd been taking i still managed to eat way too much over the weekend. I cant let myself slip this week, not one tiny bit.
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Posted on December 7th, 2008 @ 9:38pm
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I ate so much today, i feel physically sick.
Avocado and tofu salad, half a tub of pringles, half a pack of cookies, two pieces of bread and hummus, roast potatoes, chickpea burgers, cabbage and broad beans, two spring rolls.
Yet I'm somehow surprised i've reached 11 stone. I'm aiming to get back down to 10 stone by the end of the year, then work on getting back to 9 in the new year.
Tomorrow
Breakfast
One apple
Lunch
Miso soup with leaks, no noodles.
Dinner
A few mouthfuls of pasta before Steve's gig.
I spend all day sat in an office, i don't need half of the calories I'm consuming.
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Posted on October 26th, 2008 @ 10:51pm
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I got a new hat today. So did he.
Tomorow:
Breakfast
One oatabix, soy milk.
Lunch
Miso soup, noodles, mushrooms, and spinnach.
One kiwi fruit.
Starbucks soy latte
Dinner
Stir fry & Noodles, no sauce.
One Kiwi fruit.
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Posted on October 25th, 2008 @ 7:33pm
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Hello again livejournal
I've not updated in so long, but i promise it's not my fault! I've been without internet due to the fact i have MOVED. That's right! I am no longer living below a crack dealer by the name of ozzy. I know live in a snazzy little flat in the centre of manchester. I'm on the top floor with amazing views of the city including old trafford and this rather snazzy building.
The last straw came when Steve had his new bank card stolen from the communal post table and had several hundred pounds charged on it for pizza and vodaphone top-ups. Although we got the money back from the bank, i refused to live their any longer and my parents managed to bail us out. The day after we moved, all of the flats in the building were burgled, bar ours and "ozzy's." I think it's safe to say we've landed on our feet. Im a lot happier here and far less stressed out. I've even began eating healthier (and dare i say it more?) I've also taken up pilates with a few friends and i honestly feel good for the first time in a long time.
I'm going to start updating this more, i promise, but right now i'm going to a tea party (hence i have busted out the chloe dress you can hardly see in the picture above.) Everyone tell me how you are.
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Posted on June 18th, 2008 @ 9:53pm
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This is me conversing with Steve at the bus stop whilst holding a frisbee
This is the picnic we had with Tom and Rachel, i even ate some food, enjoyed it and burnt it off by running around with a frisbee.
Three days until i move away!
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Posted on May 22nd, 2008 @ 10:27am
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Why the hell does it feel like my life is falling apart around me. Steve calls me yesterday telling me he might not be able to get his student load sorted for uni because they don't have enough evidence to call for extenuating circumstances (what evidence do you need of you mum dying exactly?!) and now this morning he finds out that he cant get the flat today as planned because his brother has a bad credit rating meaning he cant be guarantor. The worst thing is these are things are completely out of my control. My parents have agreed to act as guarantor but i still have this horrible feeling that something will go wrong, and i know this feeling won't go away until its September and we're both and university and being able to pay rent on our flat.
All of this stress has got me thinking though. Im really sick of all this anxiety around food. My counseling didn't really work before, and now i think i know why, i never really had a reason for wanting to get better, but now i need to sort my shit out and start looking after myself. When i move in with Steve, my actions effect him as well as myself. I need to be in a better state of mind and a better state of health. So starting today i am making another attempt at whatever recovery is. I want to be healthy and happy and my aim is to eat three healthy meals a day, not starving myself and bingeing and purging in the evening. Today so far is going well, i had a cup of muesli and weatabix flakes with soy milk for breakfast, a few brazil nuts as a snack and some lentil soup with a whole-meal roll for lunch. Im planning on having an avocado salad and some falafel and hummus for dinner.
So far i don't feel too anxious about it, in fact i feel pretty good. It's like a weight (ZING) has been lifted from my mind. I know i can't snap my fingers and make myself better, but i need to try. I'm still going to update my journal and I'm still going to remain a member of "Eating Disordered" communities, just this time i hope they will help me stay on track in being a healthier person rather than spurring me not to eat (because lets face it, with me it never works and when it does it always ends in a horrible binge and the inevitable throwing up in a plastic bag.)
Wish me luck everyone!
(Edit)
I forgot to mention before, i totally have to wear glasses now.
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Posted on May 10th, 2008 @ 4:43pm
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My parents got me a macbook today!
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Posted on March 29th, 2008 @ 12:31pm
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Posted on March 9th, 2008 @ 7:54pm
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my life.
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Posted on December 11th, 2007 @ 9:59pm
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I'm going to change. For better or for worse, im not sure. But i'm determined to. I dont want to eat tommorow.
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Posted on November 7th, 2007 @ 9:12am
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Posted on October 16th, 2007 @ 10:18pm
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Im really scared of things not working out. Im scared my art is rubbish. Im scared that people think im wierd (i wouldn't blame them actually) Im scared that things won't just work out when i move to Manchester, Im scared i wont even get to move to Manchester. hmph
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